My Chocolate Sugar Bear =)

Hey yall!!..So heres todays thoughts and rants...My great grandmother had to be taken to the doctors today because she pulled a muscle..poor thing...im not sure what she did to pull it but she needs to take it easy!! Wow Thanksgiving is right is right around the corner ...which means black friday is right behind it!!! *SQUEALS* i dunno why im so excited for this year lol ..but ya know i think that should be a holiday black Friday...so people can get their shopping done ..but then again if EVERYONE and their mamas were off i think even more chaos would erupt then usual...lol...i mean some people have been trampled to death..yes TO DEATH..for waiting outside a store that has great sales and the crowd loses control. its sad how low and crazy people get when they really want something...and the holiday is suppose to be about togetherness then why do people go soo crazy about giving gift that they step on, fight, or even shoot a person for it..I guess the saying you'd do anything for your kids is true.MOVING on....i saw the movie precious and wow..just wow..if you havent seen it yet ..it is a MUST MUST MUST SEE!!!..very deep..i think this might of been the first movie ive been to where i had to catch my breathe and it was soo intense and soo deep..some of the things in their really blew my mind..and anyone going through that my heart goes out to you..it really stops and makes you see the brighter sides of things..there is always someone out their who is going through something worse and you should a ppreciate your life and all the blessings you have...NEXXXXT.. there is this guy who ive known for a few years now..i had class with him and he had a crush on me but i didnt give him the time of day..we were just friends...then when i transferred to a different blockbuster to work it just so happened to be the one he rents @..Go figure huh?...so i started seeing him alot more and we started talking more..but we were still just friends but he would always flirt with me..i like the attention but i never let it get ot my head..one day i come into work and BAM there he was...standing behind the counter...he had gotten a job there..=O talk about shocker..working with him only brought us closer and i admit i started to develop feelings for him and he openly admitted he liked me...but he also had a girlfriend at this point..Major BUMMER!!..so hes still with this girl i guess you could call it a long term thing...but he is still a really good friend to me and i still have such a great friendship and connection with him..I feel like if he were to break up with her i would date him in a heart beat..and is it bad that i wish he would hurry up and leave her..lol....even his mom likes me better then her haha..i saw him today for the first time in months cuz ive been away at college and i just so happened to be wlaking past as his girlfriend was screaming @ him (ugh!!) and i just wanted to go up and grab his hand and take him away from her and just go be happy lol but instead i just waved..he had the most shocked expression on his face it was quite hilarious actually ( cuz like i said before he hadnt seen me in awhile) he shook his head and did a double take..his GF turned around to see who he was looking at and i just flashed a smirk @ her and waved to him..maybe i should of grabbed him away stirred up the pot ...okay okay ill just wait and see what time reveals... oh also i nick named him my sugar bear hence the title of this blog...Ive been really wanting to write some poetry but ive had the worst writers block lately..ehh oh well ....So i must admit i miss my girls from back @ college!!! ive made some really good friends out there.. =] ..anywho..thats all for now CupCake is icing on outta here!!!lol get it ?!?!? cupcake.. icing? haha nvmm Peace out my little love muffins!

Random Holiday Break Ramble..

Im @ home for my thanksgiving break it started a little earlier then most from my school ..because my classes all got cancelled woot.. its been pretty relaxing and enjoyable i must say..just the small break i needed from school and all the drama obsessed divas i live with. Soooo anywho..i cant wait for thanks giving to see all of my family...its bee na while since ive seen them alll together in one spot..it will be a nice change..i wish we still did things together as a family like we use to..the last time i really remember us doign something is our spontaneous trip to the beach...we just picked up and went..it was sooo much fun but that was years ago..and since then everyone hasnt been to an outing except for holidays and even then some dont show up...thanks giving and Christmas are the 2 holidays u cant count on everyone to show up too..but i guess i can understand since we've all grown up and started getting into different activities and our job schedules are different and some of us even have our own families and new spouses to look after now and its just hard to find time thats convenient for everyone...speaking of seeing peopel tomorrow morning im going to visit my old high shcool see all my friends that havent graduated yet. and visit some of the staff as well...its really hard after building such a great reputation there to start all over again. i was well known and like by the staff and teachers and i was very active @ the school..but now that im @ college im lucky if my teacher will even remember my name lol but can you blame hime when he has 5 to 6 classes with 100 in each..thats a lot of names to remember ..im in the mood for some hot tubing time random i know but ahhh i will sit in at least one hot tub this break..hopefully..i am determined lol..soo i have a friend that i love dearly and theres this guy who is treating her so horrible..and i just wanna hurt him so he knows how it feels..and i just keep reassuring myself with karma karma karma will get him in the worse way possible but my patience is wearing thin (which is hard to do by the way..) and i think my new name is about to be karma cuz i wanna give him a piece of my mind and theses hands..cuz they bisexual they slap hoes and bros!! lol jk ..so i had some enchiladas today which were pretty tasty lol ..i swear im gonna be Mexican by the time i die lol soo im like sooo in love with this song called the way i am by Ingrid michaelson ..its such a lovely song to wake up to whoever reads this should definitely check it out :D its getting late and i keep yawning and blabbing about nothing soo imm gonna make like B.E.T. and RAP-IT-UP lol sweet dreams

Fast Foward to the Present

So its been forever since i updated my blog..but Im back in the flesh..well...not exactly more on the net but you get what i driving for..lol I'm no longer an active employer at blockbuster video..atleast not until winter break comes...I must say i miss my paychecks ..being broke aint a joke lol...being in debt is shame haha..buti have good reason to be in debt..Im in college doing big things..studying chemistry to become a forensic scientist. fun stuff will be more fun once i get my science classes..lol ive learned alot and met alot of people.Some people i can see myself being friends with for years to come..My room mate is really cool her name is Tiffany..shes Nigerian but you wouldnt be able to tell at first glance..or atleast i dont think so..her culture is very versatile and intriguing id love to learn more about it ..back to tiffany shes super sweet and i heart her lol.. alot of the girls dont get along with their room mate.but me and my tiffy tiff are tight like sprite..ive adopted her as my sister even though she doesnt know yet...the only negative point i have to say is living with 101 different other girls can be challenging @ times..with attitudes personalities men and pms..drama seems to live with us..but i enjoy the freedom that comes with college..Ive met a few great friends here..to mention a few Laquenshia (Que) aka Apple Dip :) this girl is soo out of control lol ive only know her for a short time and i feel like we''ve been friends for years..those are the best kind of friends..I cant wait to meet the rest of her family and her church family as well..we've already made so many great memories and will be sure to make many more to come..because thats my ninja!! she understands...Next is Camille aka Ice Cream..this was my first official roll dog here @ PV she can be reallly sarcastic and her mouth sometimes gets her in trouble lol although she is a very bright individual ..We've had alot of weird experiences here but were happy to have each other through those times..Lorraine aka Loly aka Biscuit aka too many damn nick names lol this is the Colombian of our group not mexican so dont get it twisted cuz she will be sure to correct you lol...Loly is the dork in the group i must say..you can always count on her for a laugh or an argument about chris brown..one thing you must know about her is she has an unhealthy obsession with orange..so any time someone sees anything orange they think of her..she once smuggled a hanger from my room because it was orange lol seriously. Moving on to my band chic geek (jk about the geek part dont beat me lol) Marakia ..this girl is so funny and has some true talent with music...but that comes easy when you have passion..i love her sense of humor and level of maturity and how easily i can talk to her about anything. Last but not least Destani aka Desterado this is my long lost bestie lol when i first met desterado i thought she was gonna be really stuck up and high maintenance but i couldnt of been more wrong..destani is a caring funny feisty and vibrant individual..she is chill and understands my dorky side because she has one as well..this girl is a party goer too all around cool chick in my book .. Im really looking forward to seeing the fam for turkey day N xmas break..spending quality time would be a great gift this year. (and a car lol) I miss my best friends from back @ home too!! cant wait to see everyone!! thats all for now!! CupCake is outta here!!

Eh..

Been thinking alot ..But not alot I want to share..more on a later date

Racing through my mind

So many things racing through my mind..how can I get us out of this twisted bind...if you only knew how much it hurts...When I speak the truth and all you can do is throw a dirty look and slam the door in my face...I think to myself..What if I faded from exsitence never to return again....Would it weigh on your concious to know ..that our last itneraction was a low blow ..a slap in the face ...would it eat you up inside that i said i loved you and you kept on walking and never turned back...it would tear me up to the point of no return and thats a fact..They say cherish the moments you have but in the heat of the moment we forget all morals and overloads of uncontrollable emotions comes flowing out..Things you say and Things you do effects all the people around you...Running them ragged spreading my emotions thin..you can never imagine the pain i've been in...stress building and my rage stirring just waiting for the chance to come out...Taking advantage of me thinking its okay..but i promise you Karma or Me will catch up to you one day...It wont be pretty and it wont be nice ..I might regret it but thats a small sacrifice...So think twice before you cross me or my loved ones never cross the line ...cause theres always things racing through my mind...

All work and No play

Soo..ive been working like a maniac...im getting burned out on work...I cant complain cause im happy im getting all the hour because my family and I need the money..college isnt gone be a ride in the park when it comes to money...and we have bills that still need to be paid...and we're trying to catch up on everything...and now that my brothers home for the summer and we're all working its hard only having two cars and 3 people working ..because of schedule conflicts...I wanna meet someone cool this summer..prefferably a guy that i can hang with ya know get know :)...anyway Ive been wanting to hang out with my two best friends porkchop and bean dip ...they're real people lol thats just there nick name to protect there identities :) cuz theres soome crazies running around in our society today..haha... anyway like i was saying ive been wanting to hang with them and never seem to have time which makes me muy muy triste (very very sad) but i have friday off work and hopefully i can do something with them!!

Irony much?

Soo..I stayed up pretty late last night talking to my bestie on the phone and computer we were being reallly goofy but hey thats just us for ya :) anywho..after i got off the phone i was singing which i do alot ..not very well but i enjoy it and i attempted to make a video..didnt work out so well but tomorrows a new day lol...I spent time with my madre which was nice ..we watched confessions of a shopaholic which was such a cute movie then we went out to get her hair cut and to do al ittle shopping (how ironic after watching that movie) but I didnt get anything of course lol...our little outing was abruptly cut short because i had to be at work @ 4 and it was 3:30 already :( ...work was soooo slow and longgg..but i made the best of it as always and made customers smile...We got done with all our closing duties early and everything was going according to plan until i look down and notice that the safe has locked itself with the door open... so the bars that seal it shut are sticking out and i have to punch in the code and wait another 10 minutes just to close it !!! then i finally get it closed and im punch in my alarm and im heading out the door and the lock on the door wont !!its jammed and im about to kill the door haha not really but you know i was frustrated..so my co worker and his gf came and helped me closed the door life savers ! :D But after working so hard to leave early how ironic that all those delays happened and i ended up leaving around the time we normally get out haha.. I got to talk to my other good friend jasmine who is away at college up in dallas.. i miss her and all her silliness..and of course she misses all her friends down here..hopefully she can come visit soon!!